Thinking out loud

Ever sense we've been forced to leave America, we have been hearing from most people is how "lucky" we are to be in England.
Most people probably don't get why we are "sad", though we have learned to look for happy.
We do feel blessed not lucky, in a way that is different from just "lucky bcs we get to be here" We feel blessed, bcs our family is together at this time, and hopefully forever will be. We feel blessed bcs I can kiss my babies at night and snuggle to my husband. We feel blessed bcs Troy has a job to support us. And we all are healthy and are in a country that is civilized.
All of the above was not a reality to us just a few months ago and thus we are blessed to have it in our life.
I've been having thought for a while now, and feel it is time to post it. The thought is this:

" No matter how good the Paradise is, if forced, it is undesirable"

Perhaps that is why God will force no man to Heaven (hymn)
Based on my experience, you won't like it and will almost resent it. (strange, but I believe it's true)
Just as one would plan, save, and dream of coming to England, once arriving there would love every moment of it. So it is with Heaven, one must believe, practice, and endure to inherit The Kingdom of God. Once intering into it, one will feel worthy and happy to be there. For one was faithful and with the grace of God, is able to be in such a place.
Though it is a blessing to us to be in England, we are by no means lucky in any way. We are here NOT at our own free will, and thus it is a daily finding with us to see our life here as being "lucky"
~~~Just thinking

England is an amazing place, but if it was our choice, we would be on the first flight home!
Choice, is something that was taking away from us. But we are learning to choose how we feel about it. One day at the time.